the biggest scandal

I used to dream that I could have good boyfriend..and kinda' serious having relationship with me..
now, my dream comes true..I have found him, oh no, he found me actually..
truthfully this is the first I am chased by a man,,,usually I'm the one who chase..fiuhh~~
and the feeling is so goooood....feel being loved is really different.
it feels like a queen..
everyday he calls me, talk about everything, send messages, etc. Those things just lift me up though sometimes I don't call like I don't care at all but secretly every second I look up my handphone just to check whether there are some messages or misscall from him. So, when I find out that no messages or misscall from him, I will be sooooo sad...and will wait whole day just to see piece of words of him..
Well, let me talk about him...at first he was stranger for me cause I don't know him and never see him. But he tells me that he knows me..yeah and it's true. I have tested him by questioning and he answered correctly..I think this guy really one of my friends..but he always denies it.

I pray he will be the one that I've been waiting for and I hope his feeling stay the same forever to me...

empty

feeling tired and empty...I just wanna be someone's hero
I really wanna have someone that truly needs me in his life..

Wondering around when the right one will come

This love is prohibited and I musn't feel it..Everyday I'm asking God why I should have met this man. If only I never met him, my life could be a peace one. But I don't deny that it would be boring too....well, there's nothing I can do, I'm sure time will erase everything. In addition, I've passed this same thing several times so no worry, dear...
Guys, when u fly, there also must be a time to fall. And whenever u fall, it will make ur life richer than before. U know, I have fallen for many times and it makes me stronger. Something I've learnt, love is unlike money. Money can be earned if u wanna try but not love. No matter how hard u try, if it's not your faith then u'll never find your soulmate. Again, it's about time. If the time comes, the right one will surely come along to u. I believe it. Though it's rather tiring, I mean getting myself flying but then later I also find me falling deeply, but I can convince myself that it just ain't the time.
Anyway, why I say this love is prohibited. It's because my man is not a compatible one with my mom's qualifications. He doesn't have something that basically my mom wants, but wait a minute, it's not about money, actually. It's just something principal. Unfortunately, I often get a crush with this kinda man. I just hope the right man will come to me as soon as possible cause I can't wait to see him.

the job

Yesterday, I was annouced that I was hired by EY...well, for me it was just like a dream...I thought that I never made it since I didn't do the test and the interview well...But I'm sure that EY is in critical condition that it soooo needs more human resources to deal with their bunches of work orders till they don't care about the capabilities...but there's one problem left...how can I finish my internship report on time and study for the comprehensive test...??!!...Oh God,,I need to revise my report (finally I have met my lecturer...) and the data I should find,maybe can't be got fast or available...the worst case is when the data I need ain't available, I have to find another theme...it's very very bad...

Ya Allah,,,please save me...

he remains the same...

it's been almost a year since I first met him. At that time, the cupid just directly shooted his arrow to me but not to him, so sad actually...hahahaha...In another words, I can say that it's one-sided love...
I have been trying to be close to him and I don't care whether he feels inconvinience or not. I know that I'm rather aggressive but I just do it without even thinking, it's outta my control. Every words I say and everything I do, well...they just flow out. Sometimes I realize it's kinda bit too much and I feel ashame about it but there's one thing that makes me never regret being "too" nice to him...He never treats me bad, on the other hand, he's always nice to me, very nice (I think)...He's so special and different from other men I know before. He can behave and treat others well whatever the situation he's facing...Day by day, I more admire him..and one more thing that I like so much from him is his humble heart, I call it gold heart. He never disparages others, and always shows his good attitude. Even, when we're talking about something that he doesn't really like or concerned, he still respects it by asking more though I know it's only chitchat, however I appreciate it...
I usually tell my friends about him, but they just doubt that this man is good. They think he's such a player cause he always treats me sweetly, and there may be lots of girls whom are treated the same way by him. Hey friends, I don't agree with you all..I'm the one who always be with him so I can feel it that he's sincereful to me...and if he's a player, he would have told me something about love, but in the fact, he doesn't do it...anyway, I'm sure that he regards me as only a friend, so that's why he always keeps my feeling good..
it's just me who feel the love..
it's just me whose heart beats faster..
it's just me who miss him..
it's just me who can think about him all day long...
it's just me who could be sick because of waiting him..
it's just me who hope..
and it's just me who hurt..

well, I never feel sorry that he's ever in my heart though he never gives it back...Otherwise, I thank to God that his existence could brighten my days...

how panic and stress...but still do the best

This year is my last year in college and I will have an important turning point of my life in December. Let me tell, I have done with all the classes and then I joined internship programme as one of requirements to graduate. All I gotta do now is completing my internship report and studying for the final test. But unfortunately, lots of bad things happened to me..I know that this such evil things could only happen cause of my laziness..My internship reports hasn't finished yet since my lecturer hasn't read it..and a big disaster suddenly came when I heard that she was going abroad, to Dubai,..fiuhh,,,I had told her that the dateline of my report was very very near, but she only said easily like nothing happened, "Don't worry...I'll be back."...oh geez, it was just like the terminator words....hahahaha(forced laughter)...I realized that it's my fault to give her my report late. It took soooooo long time for me to get the theme for the report. At the beginning, I thought that I could talk with her just to inspire me about the theme but she's been too busy that I only talked with her for 10 seconds on the phone, then she connected me with her secretary. Talking with her secretary ain't make any better. Well, she ordered me to meet my lecturer when I had finished my report till chapter 2..oh Gosh,,,how could??!! I was flabbergasted with the handphone on my hand...honestly, it made me shocked, the problem here is that I hardly could find the theme..and now, I must had finished it till chapter 2, means that I had to find it on my own. So...just figure out how the end is...I gave her my report a month before the dateline since I just found the theme 2 weeks before...
I hope that I can take her comment and revision before the dateline because I really need it to finish the report soon...then I can study for the final test....I pray that everything will go well as my plan...Ya Allah, please save me...

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